My life has been in an uproar for awhile now. I try not to get to personal on the site. In the past 5 years it has been one roller coaster ride after another. My husband was diagnosed with Bipolar 1, I held on as long as I could. I just couldn’t handle things any longer and had to make better for our child and myself. In the past year I have walked away from my marriage three times, twice I went back. This last time there is no going back.
It hurts knowing my marriage is actually over. I was with this man for 19 years, almost half of my life. However, we were both toxic for one another and we both deserved better. I will always love and care for him, but I’ll have to love and care for him 800 miles away. My daughter and I are now in Michigan and I am doing my best to make a better life for her.
I recently started working as a Home Healthcare Aide and I love it. It is the best feeling ever knowing you’re making a positive impact on someone elses life. I am currently trying to get my daughter and I into our own place so we can start the healing process. I miss my home from time to time, I miss my husband from time to time, I miss my dogs and I miss the life I once had with my husband before mental illness started to show its ugly face.
I hurt for those who suffer from mental illness, I hurt for those who love someone with a mental illness. One thing that keeps me going is deep down knowing the things I have been through were not at the hands of my husband but the hands of his mental condition. I pray that more is done for those who suffer and the families who have to watch as their loved ones struggle daily with a medical condition they don’t fully understand.
As soon as I get settled into my own place and get the hang of juggling the site and work, I will be posting more on here. I will touch bases on many topics, many things I have experienced with life thus far. I hope everyone is doing good and I look forward to a more positive journey in this life.
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