Good Days and Bad Days

I wish they had a cure for every issue known to human. I have good days and I have bad days. I have never kept is a secret on the site that I have bad anxiety. My anxiety issues are extreme on some days, and on others I am perfectly fine. I have been diagnosed with both PTSD and Social Phobia. Most times I will not leave the house unless I have my husband or daughter with me.

Going to the city is a chore. While I will not go by myself, when I go my heart beats a mile a minute and as soon as I get into the city I feel sick to my stomach. Thankfully we don’t go to the city often and when we do I grip the steering wheel.

I have however learned a back way into the city which will take us to most the stores. So this is a plus, I think the news is what has me freaked out, hearing about all the shootings, and the carjackings, has me wanting to stay in my nice little small town. When I say small I mean small, we don’t even have a Walmart!

Next town over isn’t so bad, and I do go shopping their when I need anything from Walmart.

Today was one of those bad days, although I took my wonderful meds I was still freaking out about making a phone call, my husband ended up making the call for me, then when I had to leave the house my stomach was in knots the whole time.

I think all the stress is what has caused the blood vessel in my eye to break. So not only was I having a bad day, I have blood all through my eye. Hopefully soon I will be able to afford to pay the eye doctor, because this is the second time I woke to my eye bleeding, and to be honest, it freaks me out.